As I was strolling the streets of Seattle last week, I was mulling over my life so far on my life path. I was gravely disappointed as I compared it to my friends and family accomplishments of marriage, children and families. Then after thinking more on it, I've concluded I've inadvertently chose a hero's life.
Can't say I'm surprised, though. What surprised me was the amount of time it's taken to acknowledge it. If I was a betting man, I would wager that I started on this life path early in my childhood. My mother once told me that I should help people as much as I can, with all my available resources, so long as it isn't detrimental to me and lawful.
Basically be the hero that I continue to read in my comic books, and see in the movies I watch.
It's no secret I love heroes. They're the good guys! And who doesn't like a hero, or at the very least, a good guy. Ultimately, they are role models that are relatable. You identify some portion of the hero such as their moral code. What I did recognize is that a hero's life is rather lonely. It's an occupational hazard, I suppose. When you're preoccupied with being a hero, there's no time for anything else, or anyone else.
I'm not saying heroes are alone. Quite the opposite, really. I noticed most heroes have an awesome group of people surrounding them to support. For example, Buffy the Vampire Slayer has her friends, and family, per se, that are dubbed the "Scoobie Gang". Or better yet, the Avengers are a group of superheroes! Even Batman has Alfred, Robin, and others that help out.
I realize these are fictional characters, but understand these are the manifestations of people that I'm confident would want to be these heroes as the ultimate reflection of themselves.
Thinking on it, while the hero isn't alone, they are technically alone - no one to call their own.
You see, I've been trying to understand why I can't find someone to share my life with. To share the accomplishments, to weather the tribulations with. Someone to be happy with. I haven't been able to find this person because I've been trying to be a hero. I've concluded I won't be able to either, as long as I continue this life path. It explains why my past relationships haven't endured despite my desire for them. Yet, I have an amazing group of friends and family that I'd do anything for them as much as they would do for me.
I know some of y'all reading think I'm arrogant and egotistical to say I'm a hero. I wouldn't say it if I didn't hear it or see it already. And in fact, I continue to hear it.
Case in point. My birthday a couple years ago. I requested everyone dress as they fav superhero. My expectation was a gamut of costumes such as Superman, or Wonder Woman, and more. Well, a dear friend of mine dressed up as Super Los. I was literally oblivious to this as I honestly thought it was a character to compliment another friend's costume (I thought she was the Comedian from Watchmen which would be in the same theme of another girl who dressed as Silk Spectre II)
No, I wasn't intoxicated either. I was convinced that I'm not a hero, so I completely missed it. But she thinks of me as a hero, and her favorite to boot, so that's the inspiration for that!
Once I recognized that, everything else seemed to make sense! Therefore I should stop fruitlessly looking for that someone. I don't have a partner earmarked for me to find. Never did.
Keep digging,
'los; outro
Can't say I'm surprised, though. What surprised me was the amount of time it's taken to acknowledge it. If I was a betting man, I would wager that I started on this life path early in my childhood. My mother once told me that I should help people as much as I can, with all my available resources, so long as it isn't detrimental to me and lawful.
Basically be the hero that I continue to read in my comic books, and see in the movies I watch.
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It's no secret I love heroes. They're the good guys! And who doesn't like a hero, or at the very least, a good guy. Ultimately, they are role models that are relatable. You identify some portion of the hero such as their moral code. What I did recognize is that a hero's life is rather lonely. It's an occupational hazard, I suppose. When you're preoccupied with being a hero, there's no time for anything else, or anyone else.
I'm not saying heroes are alone. Quite the opposite, really. I noticed most heroes have an awesome group of people surrounding them to support. For example, Buffy the Vampire Slayer has her friends, and family, per se, that are dubbed the "Scoobie Gang". Or better yet, the Avengers are a group of superheroes! Even Batman has Alfred, Robin, and others that help out.
I realize these are fictional characters, but understand these are the manifestations of people that I'm confident would want to be these heroes as the ultimate reflection of themselves.
Thinking on it, while the hero isn't alone, they are technically alone - no one to call their own.
You see, I've been trying to understand why I can't find someone to share my life with. To share the accomplishments, to weather the tribulations with. Someone to be happy with. I haven't been able to find this person because I've been trying to be a hero. I've concluded I won't be able to either, as long as I continue this life path. It explains why my past relationships haven't endured despite my desire for them. Yet, I have an amazing group of friends and family that I'd do anything for them as much as they would do for me.I know some of y'all reading think I'm arrogant and egotistical to say I'm a hero. I wouldn't say it if I didn't hear it or see it already. And in fact, I continue to hear it.
Case in point. My birthday a couple years ago. I requested everyone dress as they fav superhero. My expectation was a gamut of costumes such as Superman, or Wonder Woman, and more. Well, a dear friend of mine dressed up as Super Los. I was literally oblivious to this as I honestly thought it was a character to compliment another friend's costume (I thought she was the Comedian from Watchmen which would be in the same theme of another girl who dressed as Silk Spectre II)
No, I wasn't intoxicated either. I was convinced that I'm not a hero, so I completely missed it. But she thinks of me as a hero, and her favorite to boot, so that's the inspiration for that!
"The thing about a hero, is even when it doesn't look like there's a light at the tunnel, he's going to keep digging, he's going to keep trying to do right, and make up for what's before, just because that's who he is - Joss Whedon"
Once I recognized that, everything else seemed to make sense! Therefore I should stop fruitlessly looking for that someone. I don't have a partner earmarked for me to find. Never did.
Keep digging,
'los; outro
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