C Note(s)

WOW. If you asked me a year ago, how the next year would play out I wouldn't have guessed this. Seriously... my wife of 4 years cheats on me w/ a police officer, I visit friends all over the United States, I get promoted at work, I get my divorce, I hook up w/ random people and not-so-random people, develop my hobbies, expand my social network, put my house on the market... crazy, crazy time. Having a blast, though. I've gotta admit a stretch of 2-3 months was depressingly brutal, but I kept digging. And even right now, I'm better for it.

So. The Eastside Camera Club organized it's first field trip of the year on the first weekend of the year. I thought that was cool breeze, as I've never been on a photo field I decided to sign up. Considering I'm the VP of said club I assumed it was a good idea. I drove myself (first rally of the year) without a GPS (first time) to the small town town of Marblemount (first time I drove to a small town by design) to photograph bald eagles (first time for the eagles, and first for birds 'cause they are not my photograph love) in a zodiac. My president (Leah) and two other members (Michael and his wife, Linda) bombed up there with me. I had a blast!! It inspired me to do more of these trips. Why? First (LOL), I love photography and second, they are relatively cheaper than what I did for vacations. Now I'll be staycations in the coming year...

Mood: Cheerful Listening to: Buckcherry - Black Butterfly Reading: Photoshop User [December issue] Watching: One Tree Hill Playing: Tabula Rasa Eating: Old country breakfast Drinking: Kona Javalicious Java So I sit at this computer, and think on the year it’s has been. As always I looked at my journal entries around this same time last year to gauge what I was thinking. I laugh to myself for the simple fact it’s vastly different today than it was yesteryear. It’s been a banner year [dripping with sarcasm] for me!! Started January on the decline of my marriage, on into it’s disintegration in March. April was a month of scaling back and recovery. In May I treated myself to a trip to Sin City. At the end of June I again traveled to Phoenix to be with people that cared about me. In July I tattooed myself with my mantra: Keep Digging. I used it to buoy myself in times of deep depression. Then it became a chant and a running joke with my social network. For the entire month of August...

Mood: Cheerful Listening to: my iPod [on all song shuffle] Reading: Photoshop User [October issue] Drinking: Tully's javalicious java Once again I find myself in unchartered territory... I'm in a holding pattern at the house because my sister's lease isn't done until November, leaving the earliest move out date is 12/1. That'll give me time to pack up a few items from the house to drag over to a new apartment w/ my lil' sis in which I also work w/. I wonder w/ all that time spent together will it strengthen or weaken our relationship? Speaking of relationships, I have no new prospects on the boards. I gave an online dating site (plentyoffish.com) an honest try but the girls/women are so fickle that I've decided to abandon it but leave the pro there. You never know... a watched fishpole doesn't catch fish [I'm just making shit up at this point] I'd love to just have that "1st date" beyond the "ex". Ya know? If only to get ...

Mood: Outraged Listening to: my iPod [on all song shuffle] Reading: PSA Journal [October issue] Eating: Corndogs and corn Drinking: Edelwiess I'm so fucking pissed off!! Jesus christ I hate the game. I know, I KNOW... "Don't hate the playa, hate the game." Aiight, done and done. On Friday, an old skillet of mine holla'd at me. Granted I had nothing else to rock up, but I knew the ONLY reason why he did. You see, my best friend (g-MONEY) volunteered to babysit his g/f's little girl so his g/f and John's g/f can attend an Air Supply concert. [And no, don't get me started about?!] That left John open. It was great, really. Ate steaks, got tore up from the floor up on beer, smoked like chimneys, and watched movies I hadn't seen. Then Saturday I planned on setting up my wireless router so I can rock up the internet in my bedroom instead of the Dale Earnhardt Suite which I feel so dirty when I'm posted up there w/ my iPod blazing 'cause she...

Mood: Exhilarated Listening to: No Strings Attached Reading: Learn Tagalog Eating: Beef stroganoff Drinking: Edelwiess In my many months leading up to my official divorce, I've done research on the subject. Thankfully 50% of Americans are divorce so there is NO shortage of material to study up on. However, it's interesting to navigate through the bullshit and the truth. [Isn't that just life in general? LOL] At any rate, I've learned that people buy themselves a "divorce" and/or "break up" gift. Something significant that while in the relationship didn't purchase for a multitude of justifications (too much money, not practical, etc) Now that the person is free and single as a one-dollar bill those same justifications fold like a lawn chair. What about me, you ask? I've always wanted a notebook. Last week I earned a bonus at work, in addition I learned my divorce was finalized. Well... fuck yeah! My company has a secondary business that ...

Mood: Grumpy Listening to: What It Takes by Aerosmith Reading: PSA Journal Eating: Nothing Drinking: Swill (trying to be coffee) "In life EXPECT failure... just don't ACCEPT it!" ~ anonymous quote I really wish I could take that to heart. The weekend was so disappointing it literally broke my crayons for today. I returned to the cover of my Eeyore cloud. I'm gonna be there awhile to sulk. I'll read my books, write my stories, and not come out! BTW - dating and the games that women [and girls; yes there's a difference] play are bunk.