C Note(s)

Mood: Peaceful Listening to: Break The Ice Reading: Askmen.com The Guy's Guide to Romance Watching: Weeds Season 3 Playing: Madden '09 Eating: Sweet and Sour Drinking: Java Here's my adventure in the Philippines... I spent the week recovering and re-inserted myself into the Matrix. LOL! September 5th 2008 “So Long Seattle” It’s 10p on Friday (do you know where your children are at?) and I’m at SeaTac with my uncle to fly off to our grand adventure in the Philippines for my Dad’s wedding. Check-in was smooth (my bag was 1kg over the max but he let it slide) and security was silk. We’ve been killing time by walking around, playing dice games and eating at Qdoba which was serving breakfast burrito at midnight. Go figure. Thankfully I’m escaping from the drama on my life at least for a lil’ while. Hopefully I’ll have a great time to recharge my soul and ready myself for a long winter in Seattle. September 7th 2008 “Hello Kitty” A 12 hour flight that crossed the internat...

Mood: Shame Listening to: Newly loaded songs on my iPod Reading: Generation Kill Watching: Weeds Season 3 Eating: Taco Bell eats Drinking: Mountain Dew Only days away from my trip to the Philippines. I leave on Friday. Thankfully I have the entire Labor Day weekend to make my final arrangements. I feel shameful since I had to move back into a house that I own w/ my ex-wife[yes, finally she delivered the coup de grace]. I was only able to secure a month pass w/ a friend of mine. I truly hope that the 2.5 months of non-daily interaction w/ her will have prepared me for the 1.5 months before we sell the house. I just wish I didn't have to be here. I'll do my utmost to be out and about until bedtime each day. I'm sure that'll prove to be difficult. But I have several ideas on how to handle that. RE: My promotion. I applied for a promotion at work, and received it! HOT damn, huh? I thought so. Many people in the company approve of the decision by management too. Odd. ...

Mood: Pity Listening to: iPod Reading: PostSecrets Eating: Doritos and salsa Drinking: Javalicious Java "The Memory Will Never Die" by Default I whisper in your ear The words you want to hear You feel the wind and it reminds you It happens everytime You stop and close your eyes You can't deny what lives inside you Well I know it's hard to see What is meant to be When yesterday is so far behind you Deep inside your soul knows I'm always there You made me believe the day you surrender to me The memory will never die The love that you gave I'll never throw it away The memory will never die The tides take a turn Another lesson learned I'm right here but still you wonder Would you say that you need more And it's not what it was before It was before your on your own and going under Deep inside your soul knows I'm always there You made me believe the day you surrender to me The memory will never die The love that you gave I'll never throw it awa...

Mood: Uneasy Listening to: iPod Reading: PostSecrets Watching: Mr & Mrs Smith Eating: Steak Drinking: Javalicious Java "Driving away from the wreck of the day / And the light's always red in the rear-view / Desperately close to a coffin of hope / I'd cheat destiny just to be near you / Driving away from the wreck of the day / And it's finally quiet in my head / Driving alone, finally on my way home to the comfort of my bed / And if this is giving up, then I'm giving up / If this is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up / On love, On love" ... so last night was the first night I didn't cry myself to sleep. Yet, I'm four-wheeling badly which tells me I've gone so long w/o good sleep that it'll be hell trying to rest this old man's bones sufficiently. I really felt welcomed into the Briggs crib. AMAZING PEOPLE!! Still my bravado is only veneer thick. To the trained eye, it crumbles fast.

Mood: Rant Listening to: iPod Reading: Into The Wild (Yes, still!) Watching: The King of Kong: A Fistful of Quarters Eating: leftover Chinese food Drinking: Water ...

Mood: Rant Listening to: 8 Mile soundtrack Reading: Into The Wild Watching: The clock Drinking: Vanilla latte "8 Mile" by [Eminem] Sometimes I just feel like, quittin I still might Why do I put up this fight, why do I still write Sometimes it's hard enough just dealin with real life Sometimes I wanna jump on stage and just kill mics And show these people what my level of skill's like But I'm still white, sometimes I just hate life Somethin ain't right, hit the brake lights Case of the stage fright, drawin a blank like Da-duh-duh-da-da, it ain't my fault Great then I falls, my insides crawl and I clam up (wham) I just slam shut I just can't do it, my whole manhood's just been stripped, I have just been vicked So I must then get off the bus then split Man fuck this shit yo, I'm goin the fuck home World on my shoulders as I run back to this 8 Mile Road [Chorus] I'm a man, I'ma make a new plan Time for me ...

A large portion of the Brew Crew; g-MONEY (Scott), Hotlips (Sidney), Pinay Power (Lupe), Smokin’ Aces (John), Char-the-Star (Charlene), and ‘los with the most (yours truly), paid for a Southern Caribbean cruise on the Carnival Destiny. The following are excerpts from my journal entries about our adventure… September 28 th and 29 th 2007 “Joy To The World” Talk about being artificially busy. I may have achieved 1 hour of God’s honest work today… hell, I’m going on a cruise what did I care? [at the airport] Met with Sidney and Scott since they were on the same flight. Delta had a flight schedule change and re-routed us thru JFK versus Orlando. Nice. Thanks, Delta! A red-eye flight that was long was further extended. I was four-wheelin’ badly by the time we touched down in San Juan. Thankfully getting a taxi and riding wasn’t nearly as much dramarama during my Vegas trip… [Sheraton Old San Juan] Check in was breezy; I’m still waiting for the bottom to drop out. The "...